Toby Oliver – NaPoWriMo

Day 23 – Grief

Shelter

Dear father, were you ever there for me?
Dear girlfriend, you have never cared for me.
Dear brothers, didn’t call, weren’t here.
Dear demons, you’re the only ones who re left for me.
Dear mother, on your cradle my hand.
Dear darling, your love is like quicksand.
Dear sister, did you ever see my band?
Dear demons, can I summon you take my stand?
I’m waking up every morning hoping that I’m gone in
sleep.
I’m waking up terrified, hoping that I died in peace.
But I realize I’m alive.
And I realize I’m alone.
And I realize I need help,
that I just might not go on.
that I just might not go on.
I can’t take it, any longer
tired of not being killed, but stronger.
They’re telling me what a great man l am.
They’re telling when they need me I’m there.
They’re telling everyone’s in the shit.
But telling that you gotta get yourself out of it.
How come that I’m not afraid.
How come I can take your blame.
No fear of responsible me.
No tear when I’m telling my pain is here.
But I realize I’m alive.
And I realize I’m alone.
And I realize I need help.
that I just might not go on.
•.. And all I see is NO.
I can’t take it, any longer
tired of not being killed, but stronger.
I’m waking up every morning hoping that I’m gone in
sleep…
I’m waking up terrified, hoping that I died in peace…

Day 27 – Right and Wrong Emotions

Melusine

Forever in my arms
Will you drown in me?
Forever loving wide
like the oceanside
You ‘Il cover me with love
I believe in thee
Whenever I’m far down
You’ll be true with me
A war in me that grows stronger now
Do I face myself and the curse I bow
It has gained control over centuries
But with sparks of hope my heart can be free
No more in shadows
I’ll linger, I will start rising
No one can keep me from trying
a love everlasting
rules will stick with me
Until one is finally trustful
give you the world but remember
Your life’s the pledge for my heart
We are the shadows
we linger, we’Il stop your rising
You can’t escape though you’re trying
No love’s everlasting
rules will stick with thee
and no-one will ever be trustful
u belong to our world, just remember
his life’s the pledge for your start.
Forever in my arms
Will you drown in me?
Forever side by side
Where I won'”t have to hide
I’ll listen to your vows
I believe in thee
Whenever I’m far down
Are you true with me?
Where I’Il be, when you’re through with me?
Will your loyalty age eternally?
Will you judge on me, will you reign unfree?
Oh, My soul will feel if you’re the one for me.
No more in shadows
no order can keep me by
release my cold heart save and sound
to your true love rising
grant every wish that your heart truly does desire
Remember my heart has a prize
It takes death for your vice
We are the shadows
we’re order to live by
remember what he’ll have to paythat’s your love
everlasting?
He’ll give you to the world away!
for what’s to come
your life’s the prize!
Always when I’m down under
Will you keep my secrets save?
All days spent as two we’ll wonder
Why we’d ever part our ways?
Forever in my arms
Are we meant to be?
I’m searching far and wide
Oh, for you and me

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